Yay friends! I am so happy I have time for one more post this weekend. Plus I got a new Mac keyboard and it feels so nice on my fingers. It's been a long time since I've had a truly functional keyboard. Sometimes it IS the little things.
So, I had so much to tell you yesterday and I wanted to just expand on that a little today. Healing is such a profound thing. From what I've learned these last months, the body is truly wired to heal. Of course, it wants to heal and thrive, that is it's job. It's just we can make it so hard on ourselves, with our diets and stress levels. Sometimes we don't know what is going on with us. Things are mysterious. And then- it seems we must truly become even more awake and aware and trust and know ourselves. I think illness must come from a separation of mind and body. In yoga I remind students to keep their minds on the mat with the body. I ask them: if your mind is disconnected and off thinking about your shopping list, or your relationship issues, then who is present for the yoga practice? No one. The body is going through motions and no one is watching it, joining with it. It's not "yoga" then. Yoga is the merging of body, mind and breath (spirit.)
We become so disconnected from our bodies at times. And then we turn and look inside it one day and say...WOAH! WHAT IS GOING ON? And the body says WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN? (But it would say it much nicer than that because it loves you.)
Should it be SCARY to look inside the body? Should scans and ultrasounds be scary? Are we that disconnected? And don't you think it's wild that we've constructed machines to look inside our bodies and see what is wrong? That we look to others to confirm these tests and scans? It feels weird, doesn't it? I choose to believe that there is a way to "scan" ourselves. And I believe that my thermograph earlier this week was a way for me to only drop deeper into this trust and knowingness (BTW: I really believe now my breast issue is a bit of fibrocystic breast stuff mixed with inflammation from the detox of this cleanse.) Think about it though- what if we could be our own physicians? I think if we could truly let go of all the fear, there would be a chance.
Again, as I say all the time, I DO believe in Western Medicine in plenty of ways- clearly, I just got a thermography scan. But I can't help but be pulled in these other ways of thinking. Ultimately, I would rather TRUST in my body than FEAR it. I think people with all sorts of illnesses can begin to trust in their bodies- even if there have been years of illness and distrust. To drop in and feel that separation from body and mind--- it can feel shocking and scary. But still, there is the body beating the heart and digesting the food. It's happening right now. What an AMAZING thing. The body doing this for us so we can exist here on earth. And so we must ask is this "disconnection" in the body, or the mind? The body seems to have it's shit together, so it must be the mind that is creating the separation.
I'm on the 4th day of my 28 day cleanse (and my 5th month of a plant based diet) and I truly feel this is the way to physical health. Never before have I been able to do a real cleanse, as I told you last post, even though I have leaned towards a very healthy diet since I was a teenager. I am not sure what my block was, but I know being plant-based for the last 5 months was totally 100% imperative for me to take this next step. It's essentially going raw - and I supposed that always scared me a little because I had so many "addictions" to things I never realized were so comforting. At this point, my comfort foods are down to: grains. Gluten free toast and oatmeal. Neither of which I am consuming on this cleanse. And I will enjoy those things again for sure. But for now, amazingly, they are not missed.
BTW: Check out this beautiful salad I came up with. A few big handfuls of fresh spinach, a dollop of fresh salsa, 1/2 avocado and half a lemon, squeezed. I'm gonna call this the "Joy Salad" because it makes me very joyful and giddy when i eat it. I came up with it for lunch and am having it again as a mid-afternoon snack.
I will say, sometimes I feel lonely on this diet, and especially on this fast. My younger daughter is pretty on board with most things I do, and that is nice. My husband and older daughter who both never feel any sort of ache or pain, DO eat well- but they definitely don't eat as clean as I do. In fact, a big steak is de-frosting on our counter now for them. It's just one steak that they will all share between them. They hardly ever eat red meat- but alas, there it is.
I completely stumbled upon and started watching this today as I jumped on my rebounder. It resonated so deeply with me- it all just brings tears to my eyes. Partially there are tears because I am hearing people talk about how I myself feel and so I feel validated and less alone in my strong viewpoints. Partially there are tears for the way we treat animals on this earth. Also, for the general deep disconnection we are experiencing here on the planet. I feel like I am trying to break out of this shell completely so I can really truly be fearless and help people. So I can feel the connection, and trust. I know there are people on this planet living in that vibration. I'm not there yet. Or is that just another mind-created thought to keep me in the dark? I know that I touch the heart of truth. I know anything less is all in my mind and the truth is really just THERE for the taking, that I already AM THAT. And so are you.
Much Love to you- always,
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