I think a lot about the resistance we sometimes have to getting well. I remember a point in my life when there was absolutely no way I was going to be able to do the things I needed to do in order to get better. I was in an extremely toxic relationship (the word "toxic" has never found a more meaningful use.) I was eating somewhat healthy I guess, but not at all enough. I was very thin. I drank alcohol out of sadness. If someone had tried to get me on the diet I am on now, there was no way I could have done it. When I met Brad, I became much happier. When I got married, happier still. Then had kids, happier still. But I still wasn't ready to let go of coffee or alcohol or dairy or wheat. Not really. As time went on, I physically felt crappier and crappier. Until, I was able to, in one instant, see what I had to do in order to feel my best. And everything you need to know about that transition rests in the posts of this blog.
I come across people now in my work as a yoga teacher, or people I know through my kids school, etc... and I see how unwell they are. I suggest the journey I am on, but there is such resistance. "You mean I have to cut out EGGS? I have eggs every morning!"
Yes. IF you are feeling unwell, if no doctor can help you cure what you have, then you should stop eating eggs. Eggs, dairy, gluten, caffeine, alcohol,corn, soy, natural flavors, artificial flavors, and canola oil.
Anthony William tells us that "medical mysteries" (AKA diseases and symptoms that can not be cured -or often even understood- by Western Medicine) are caused by one or a blend of four things that he calls the Unforgiving Four: viruses, heavy metals, radiation and pesticides. Without getting into the brilliant depths of his understanding and explanations (his books will do that for you) what's important to understand here is that certain foods FEED (or otherwise support) the Unforgiving Four and then sickness and disease start to prevail.
Some people are more at risk, or weakened by the Unforgiving Four than others. But William goes on to say that almost all cancers, and most other diseases and unexplained symptoms are caused by a combo of a virus in combination with one of the other Unforgiving Four. (Eggs feed viruses. That is a scientific fact, as labs GROW viruses in egg.)
But again, back to my point. When we are suffering....when doctors provide drugs and shoulder shrugs but no long-term answers. What do we do?
It is my understanding that to be in full emotional health, we also must be in full physical health. This doesn't mean we feel great 100% of the time, or that we are not still healing constantly, but that we are committed to letting go of that which doesn't serve us. Similar to letting a relationship go, or even a friendship that isn't supportive of our personal well-being- in this way, we let foods go that do not support us physically. We try the path long enough to see what is under the resistance. It is my experience that when we can really make some changes, and get through the physical withdrawal. And then through the emotional withdrawal. What is underneath is very strong and informative. But we can't get there until we let go.
If you experience your life as having any chronic health issues, or if you feel less than great, I invite you to spend some time thinking about why you have such resistance to letting certain foods go and SEEING what happens. Why do you feel you can't? Would you rather stay unwell? Are you not worth feeling amazing? These are powerful questions and they take time.
I remember when I was in that really horrible relationship, before I met my husband, I was in therapy trying to get out of it. And I was telling my therapist how much I wanted to be able to, essentially, be strong enough to be a doormat. To be strong enough to be abused. That's what it eventually came down to for me. I wasn't focused on getting strong enough to get OUT of the relationship, but trying to become strong enough to take the abuse. Soon after I came upon that realization, with the help of this brilliant therapist I was able to start changing that sick thought pattern. This was after 3 years in this specific terrible relationship and many,many more years of other failed and painful relationships.
That is what healing is like. You realize that trying to be strong in the face of holding onto addictions is futile. Your strength lies in overcoming that which holds you down.
Some of us become addicted to being unwell. It is so ingrained in us that we don't even consider there is another way out. It's always a choice, though. No matter how sick you are or how old you are. And like I say, you'll bloom when you're ready. If there is a tiny part of you that finds some possible truth to what I am saying...take a walk, or a long bath...and think a little more. Or stop thinking, perhaps, and let your heart speak.
Much Love to you,